My Life
Saturday, 19 September 2009
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SUMMER!!
Life is going by so quickly
Hardly a moment to rest
Some stuff fun, some not
There's much going on:
I ripped my calf muscle in August (I'm finally able to walk better now)
Elizabeth started college
Valerie is loves to take pictures
Julie is becoming an amazing artist (and a good cook!)
Gracie is taking guitar
work has been steady for Steve
my cholesterol dropped 90 points without medication (diet - down to 184)
Elizabeth attends my counseling classes with me
Val hit her head at the end of July and has been having headaches :(
Julie is learning to play bass
Gracie is turning into a little woman
I have lost some weight!
Steve is hoping to get these Wellsfargo jobs that will keep him busy for probably two years
Elizabeth is looking for a child care/nanny job
Valerie teaches two ballet classes
Julie keeps reminding me she will learn to drive next year
Gracie is in junior high this year
I am almost finished with my biblical counceling classes (will get certified soon)
Elizabeth has been writing more music
Valerie and Julie are taking singing lessons
Gracie is learning to be more independent in schooling.
This week the season turns to fall
although here in so Cal we are having indian summer (81 right now at 4:30pm)
Looking forward to cold nights and fires (indoors)
and hopefully some rain (we need it bad).
I'll leave you with this:
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:1-2
~Di
Monday, 20 July 2009
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Good.
I read something today that was interesting. In talking about the God causing all things to work together for good (Rom 8:28). I think sometimes when things go "wrong", I tend to pop up this verse in a kind of talking myself into God is good. As in, "I need to remember that God does all things for good - so this is for my good, even though I don't understand it". Kind of like "good" is something that I can't understand because His ways are not mine. So good is some term that I won't be able to comprehend until I see the whole picture or see how it works out perhaps not even in this lifetime, but in heaven or something like that. I guess I was more or less holding that thought as a truth of God that I do believe, but don't have an answer for.
But this devotion I was reading today was great because it defined what "good" is.
God has one goal for me: to become conformed to the image of His son. Although I already knew this to be true, I don't think I really have thought about it in relation to "Him causing all things to work together for good."
Everything in my life, everything that happens -- each blessing, trial, joy or tragedy -- all are because He is sculpting me with His all-wise and loving hand making me into "a beautiful reflection of Himself." Therefore everything is good because that "thing" happening is God's loving, good hand, sculpting me to be more like Christ.
He who as begun a good work in me will be faithful to complete it. I have this confidence. And now when things go "wrong", I can confidently say, "This is good because in this God will make me more like Christ." -- Wow -- that's an amazing thing to be able to confidently say...
---------------------------Ok -- life has been a blur. I've sat down several times to update, but..... obviously not.
Here are some highlights from the last couple of months:
My oldest daughter, Elizabeth turned 18.


She also is graduated high school this year! Here are some of her grad pictures that her friend Bekka took:


Here are some pictures from our school's promotions/graduation ceremonies.
Elizabeth is on the worship team. They lead us in Shout to the Lord.

Gracie recited Scriptures that help her sleep at night.

Her class being promoted from 6th grade to 7th
Valerie performed worship hula.


Her class being promoted from 10th grade to 11th
Julie graduated from 8th grade. She played guitar and sang a song.
Her class being promoted from 8th grade to 9th.
We go to say a few words...


Elizabeth sang a song and played guitar also.




Also in June, Gracie won Sportsman of the Year in Awana. And also got her Timothy Award for completing 10 AWANA books (something like over 700 memorized Scriptures).

Gracie also turned 12!!!


I threw in these last two just because I like them...

I got soaked taking this one!!!!

That's all for now. Sorry it's been so long since I updated.
~Di
Wednesday, 20 May 2009
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Dang!
I've fallen off the face of the earth again. I really want to be sharing some thoughts in my head, but time is on the fast track heading towards graduations and year end madness. Over the last two weeks I've made 19 ballet costumes, and I still have two more (terribly difficult) I need to get done by this weekend (cut, but haven't started sewing). My daughter's 18th Birthday Party is Sunday night, and my niece College Grad Party is Saturday night, and we always have a pool party here on Monday, Memorial day.... Then it's into Youth ministry stuff and planning for Graduations on the 6th. I have two graduating: Julie graduates from 8th and Elizabeth graduates from high school.
So, I probably won't be saying much until some time in June! But I'll probably try to post some pictures.
However, I do read my subscriptions and even comment here and there. Just didn't want ya to think I was ignoring you all.
~Di
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
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Vocations: Restless Hearts
...Continued from last post…
"You are where you are, doing what you are doing, connected to whom you are connected, under given authorities, not because you have put yourself there in order to find fulfillment, but because God has put you there for His purposes."
Psalm 138:8 says, the LORD will fulfill his purpose for me… God has a plan for my life and for my vocation.
1 Corinthians 7:17 Only let each person lead the life that the Lord has assigned to him, and to which God has called him…
Pay careful attention to the wording of 1 Cor 7:17 -- lead the life that the Lord has assigned him – not lead the life that we think we have chosen.
We need to keep reminding ourselves that God has chosen our path and our response is to glorify Him in it.
We also need to see the value in the mundane tasks in our callings (otherwise our hearts become restless). Take my calling as a wife for instance. Ephesians 5:22 says Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. As I take care of the seemingly meaningless tasks associated with being my husband's wife (laundry, shopping, cleaning, cooking, etc), I am fulfilling the first and greatest commandment (Matt 22:37-38), loving and bringing glory to God, and fulfilling the second one like it (Matt 22:39), loving and serving my neighbor as well as providing a picture of Christ and the church.
But so often we find our hearts restless, wanting to find some fulfillment outside of the mundane tasks we do – whether that involves being a student and doing homework, being a mother and cleaning the counter for the 400th time in a day, being an employee and listening to your boss drone on or doing tasks you’d rather not do, etc. Christa put it this way, "Our hearts naturally seek after adventure, lust for the "happily ever after", and scorn the seemingly meaningless tasks which often comprise our day."
Knowing that – that this is what my heart will naturally do, I need to be skeptical of my restless heart -- we all need to ask -- what are we seeking after and why?So how do we quiet that restless heart? We must resist the impulses of our heart and learn to think through what we are feeling biblically by fighting the good fight (1 Timothy 6:11-12) with contentment and perseverance!
These following paragraphs are just some of my personal notes after studying this, not necessarily what Christa shared.
Contentment grows out of having God’s perspective on life. (back to the little quote the Christa wanted us to memorize from my last post and the top of this post). Contentment grows out of humility and trust in God and devotion to Christ and eternal values. Philippians 4:12-13 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.A heart of thankfulness is the key to contentment – because – as soon as you are thankful (taken from “Thankfulness – Even When It Hurts” by Susan Lutz)
· You enter the presence of God
· You start to see your life differently, through God’s eyes
· You defeat Satan’s efforts to control your interpretation of reality
· You begin to link your life to God’s promises
· You start to see not only your situation but yourself – your own heart – through God’s eyes
· Your human relationships get healthier because they are shaped by faith.
God is in control, as Jeremiah 29:11-13 states, For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.
And the definition of perseverance: to continue to do something in spite of difficulty; refusing to give up; persist. We need set our minds to just keeping on doing the right thing. Galations 6:9 And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.
We need to apply this biblical thinking to all situations. We need to be asking ourselves: How does understanding the doctrine of vocation give significance to the boring, small, routine tasks associated with one of my vocations?
… to be continued ...
Saturday, 11 April 2009
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Vocation for Validation -- NOT!
We went on our women's retreat a couple of weekends ago. I don't think I have ever gone on a retreat so thoroughly grounded in and overflowing with God's Word!! It was refreshing! And the speaker was a Nouthectic counselor, so for me, as I am studying to be one, it was invaluable to see solid biblical foundations applied to every situation.
Over the next few posts I am going to attempt to pass along some what I got out of it.
The topic was vocation...all the different callings in our lives. Things like: mother, friend, congregant, daughter, sister, student, youth group leader, etc, etc, etc... the complete list is different for all of us.
One of the first points Christa, our speaker, made is that our vocation isn't for validation.
So much of the time, especially as homemakers, we might fall into the trap feeling my "job" is unfulfilling; it's just the same thing over and over and over. This may lead to a tendency to want to search after other things that seem more fulfilling, but which compete for our attention in some non-negotiable jobs we have. For instance, if I join a bible study group (or offer to lead one) to get out of the house 4 days a week, but my chores aren't getting done or my house is in disarray.
So somewhere along the line we lose God's prospective, and we start thinking that our vocation is sought for self-fulfillment.
1 Corinthians 10:31 says: So whatever you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
The chief end of man is to glorify God and enjoy him forever -- not glorifying and enjoying ourselves. We tend to miss this because we are constantly looking to being fulfilled.
Christa shared: "It is a wrong understanding of vocation to spend a lifetime of chasing after something that never exists [fulfillment apart from God] while missing the purpose and calling that encompasses our lives TODAY" [in either our non-negotiable vocations (motherhood, student, daughter, wife, etc) or our negotiable ones (homeschooling, serving at church, working, etc)!]
Every relationship we are in, every job we do, the place we live, our neighbors, our church, etc, etc, etc, God has specifically placed us by His wisdom, for His purposes and glory. And for our good!!
She encouraged us to memorize this:
"You are where you are, doing what you are doing, connected to whom you are connected, under given authorities, not because you have put yourself there in order to find fulfillment, but because God has put you there for His purposes."
I find that I am needed to renew my mind to this -- renewed to the fact that God placed me exactly where I am to glorify Him in everything I do.
When we truly comprehend that, seeking our own fulfillment will fall by the wayside.
...to be continued...
Thursday, 09 April 2009
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Gracie last night was on the neighbor’s trampoline and fell off. She wasn’t jumping, rather, she was stepping backwards to let someone else jump and just misjudged the end of the trampoline. Her foot got caught the spring hole and she fell off backwards with her arm outstretched – hit the walkway and got buckle fractures in her radius and ulna forearm bones.
Looking on the blessing’s side - her leg fell through the hole to her knee as she was falling, so she didn’t hit her head, and that caused her not to fall full weight on her arm onto the cement (which probably would have resulted in a displaced fracture as well as a head injury), rather to just dangle there after she fell. And she didn’t injure her ankle, leg or knee.
We need to make an appointment with the Orthopedic doctor. She has is splint right now, but needs a cast for 4 weeks. There was also some question about whether or not she has some injury in her shoulder. The doctor last night said he didn’t think so, but it “looks odd”. He said the Orthopedic doctor would be able to tell. Her elbow was in much pain as well, but they said that looked fine.
Looking on line, I kind of found a x-ray of what the fractures look like -- almost in the same spot as hers, although, not as bad on the ulna as this one shows (but looks just like it on the radius (right side forearm bone) as I'm assuming that's the one that took most of the brunt of the fall):
Wednesday, 08 April 2009
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Ok -- so we went on Retreat and I missed posting Julie's birthday (it was the Friday of retreat). She had a great day. This year Disneyland lets you in free on your birthday (only 7 miles away from us) -- better yet you can apply that to a yearly pass. So she was able to get her pass for only $65!! So she went there in the morning and then we went to retreat. I brought a cake up and we sang Happy Birthday to her that night. We have a tradition of celebrating birthday as a family first thing in the morning. We decorate the night before -- we use the white board as a gigantic card and all sign it.Then we get donuts and open presents... But this year for her, we celebrated the night before because Disneyland opened at 8am and she needed to leave early because of retreat. So that was different, but still fun.
Saturday, 21 March 2009
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Forgiveness
***EDIT***
I just wanted to point out another aspect of this that I wasn't dealing with in my thoughts here, but is very important when dealing with these Matthew and Luke verses - so as to keep a more complete picture of this and not lead people to think they need to be confronting people on every little sin or offense:
1 Peter 4:8 says, "Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins."
This verse is key in understanding that the Matthew and Luke verses are not saying that we are to go to everyone every time they offend us or we perceive they do something. If this were so our list would be endless by the end of our day every day!!!!
We should consider confronting for two reasons:
1) As Gal 6:1 instructs: "Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness." So if they are in trouble because they are entangled in an issue, then we confront them in love to restore them.
2) Anything we find too difficult to cover in love as 1 Peter 4:8 instructs. However, love should cover most things. If we find that love isn't covering most things, then we need to check our own hearts -- are we having bitterness or an unloving or critical spirit?
***END EDIT***
As many of you know, I'm studying to be a Nouthetic (Biblical) Counselor. The current class I'm in is on forgiveness. I'm still mulling it over in my head.
One thing I'm was thinking about was....
Luke 17:3-4 "... If your brother sins, rebuke him; forgive him, and if he repents, and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, saying, 'I repent,' you must forgive him."
And Matt 18:15 "If your brother sins, go and show him his fault in private; if he listens to you, you have won your brother."
They explained this verse to say that we have an obligation on the offended side to confront the offender (if, as Matt 5:23-24 commands, the offender has not come to repent on his/her own). It said that's a command here -- if he sins, rebuke him -and- if he sins, go and show him his fault in private.
The reasoning behind this is because we want to do everything to maintain the bond of unity. Offenses surely do not promote unity so both the offender (in Matt 5:23-24) and the offended (in Luke 17:3-4, Matt 18:15) are command to go to each other and fix it (confront or repent).
But the verse that kept popping into my mind was Proverbs 19:11 "Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to "overlook an offense." (emphasis mine)
I always took this as two thoughts: one about being slow to anger and one about overlooking an offense.
I always have read this to say that it is to our glory to overlook it when someone sins against us. But then Prov 19 and Luke 17 would be at odds with one another, as we cannot both overlook something and confront it at the same time.
So then I thought maybe it meant that we forgive the person the offense, even if they haven't repented of it. But then, that is at odds with the rest of Matt 18:16-17 telling us to confront-- meaning that we are to go one on one (as it says privately) THEN if he/she doesn't repent we take one or two others THEN we tell it to the church (elders, then the body), etc. There are a lot of commands there.... so overlooking it in that regards seems to be a detriment to the offender as every step outlined in Matt 18:16-17 is for the person's good that he/she may learn discipline and unity is restored in the body when rightly applied.
And forgiveness isn't granted to the sinner where there is no repentance. The gospel outlines that perfectly. Because then forgiveness would be acceptance with no conditions, yet forgiveness always implies something in the offender that cannot be accepted -- Christ did not accept us as we were - He died to make us acceptable!
So, now I see Prov 19:11 is not two thoughts, rather one thought addressing anger and bitterness - meaning, when someone does something to us - first be slow to anger and then forbearance should takes the place of resentment. Our response is not to forgive someone before he/she seeks forgiveness, rather, submit to God our hearts in a situation like this so bitterness doesn't rise up -- and then be ready and willing to give forgiveness when someone repents.
Friday, 13 March 2009
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Fall on Jesus
As you know I have 4 daughters ages 11-17. Hormones rage here. Today, not unlike every other day, is a day of breaking up arguments and petty disputes. It gets all too wearisome.
I'm tempted to yell. I'm tempted to cry. I'm tempted to lock myself in my room. I'm tempted to give in to my weariness of it all. "Not another day of this, Lord; I just can't take it!"
Last night a song popped into my head. Come to Jesus by Chris Rice.
Weak and wounded sinner,
Lost and left to die,
O, raise your head for Love is passing by,
Come to Jesus,
Come to Jesus,
Come to Jesus and live,
Now your burden's lifted,
And carried far away,
And precious blood has washed away the stain... so
Sing to Jesus ,
Sing to Jesus ,
Sing to Jesus and live,
And like a newborn baby,
Don't be afraid to crawl,
And remember when you walk sometimes we fall... so
Fall on Jesus,
Fall on Jesus,
Fall on Jesus and live,
Sometimes the way is lonely,
And steep and filled with pain,
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain... then
Cry to Jesus,
Cry to Jesus,
Cry to Jesus and live,
O, and when the love splills over,
And music fills the night,
And when you can't contain you joy inside... then
Dance for Jesus,
Dance for Jesus,
Dance for Jesus and live,
And with your final heartbeat,
Kiss the world goodbye,
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side... and
Fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus and live,
Fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus,
Fly to Jesus and live
Although this song seems to be reaching out to the unbeliever or the progression of a new believer, I tell you, it ministers to me so -- just a reminder that where I need to run first is to the cross of Christ -- or "fall on Jesus" as the song urges us.
Hebrews 12:1-2 says:
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.
Run for repentance; run for forgiveness; run for refreshing in a weary moment.
As my pastor says, "If we think wrong we cannot live right." Our battles are much more than outward mothering struggles, they are an inward war in our minds. We need to lay aside the "deeds of darkness" (Rom 13:10-14) and put on the "Light". The key to this putting off and putting on is the renewing of our minds (Eph 4:17-24) through prayer and the meditation and memorization of God's word.
Galatians 6:9 reminds us:
And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.
Now that's a promise!!
Are you falling on Jesus?
Monday, 09 March 2009
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My daughter, Valerie, has been taking hula for a couple of years now. We recently found this place about 25 miles from here that teaching Christian Worship Hula. So she has been taking it from them since January. Friday she performed at a mission's fundraiser. Just wanted to post it here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDXtTOQzafk
Friday, 06 March 2009
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Hi. I sent out email, but then remembered there are a lot of you on facebook and xanga that I don't have an email for so thought I would update you here:
Thank you so much for all your prayers.
Elizabeth called 911 for me on Monday night as I was having severe chest pain and was passing out. The EMTs treated me for a heart attack and whisked me off to the hospital. Initial test blood tests and EKG didn't show anything, however, the ER doc said unless I was currently having a heart attack the EKG could look normal and that the blood tests for a cardiac enzyme can take up to 24 hours to show. So they admitted me.
Once in they ran a battery of tests: A CT of my chest and neck (they were looking for the possibility that my cancer had returned), several EKG's, and echocardiogram (looking for abnormalities in my heart), an ultrasound of my abdomen (looking for ulcers or gall badder problems), several (my arms all all bruised up!) blood tests (testing for other cancers and such), a CT of my head (looking to see if I had a stroke), and a Stress test and two scans of my heart (looking for heart disease).
When they do the stress test for your heart they do a scan of your heart before and after, so one resting and one after it's been stressed to see if there has been any change. The scan after my stress test showed that there had been a change in my heart on the front side of it, which usually means blockage or damage. This is why I had to have the angiogram, to see if there was damage or blockage.
Steve was in Las Vegas on a business trip. The doctor urged that Steve need to be present during the procedure in case of problems (stroke, heart attacked, kidney damage/failure, death - to name a few...). So Steve hopped in his car and drove home -- arriving around 1AM -- what a guy! <3
I had this procedure Wednesday morning. Good news, no damage (but can't tell how much that whole thing scared the heck out of me!!) -- since there was neither blockage or damage, they are assuming that my implant shifted during the scan causing the false positive. Lovely. I am doing good although the surgery site does make it uncomfortable to walk...
So -- after two CT scans, multiple heart tests, the stress Test and scans, ultrasound of my abdomen, blood test after blood test, and an angiogram, we have no answers as to what my problem was.
HOWEVER, we do know that I don't have any type of heart disease, gall bladder problems, no high blood pressure, no ulcers, didn't suffer a stroke, that my cancer has not returned, and I am definitely not pregnant. :)
The cadiologist did say that he could tell from my angiogram that I have had a lot of stress because I had tortuous veins -- where they start to curl up - kind of like lock of curly hair.... he said it may have happened during my cancer spell or even during my Graves Disease. But that I needed to watch my stress level
I have had the pain once again last night - the doctors and nurses told me not to ignore it, although I am tempted. I am supposed to follow up with my oncologist, who will do an MRI (not sure what for, though), my endocronolgist (as my thyroid numbers showed my thyroid was a bit hyper), the cardiologist and the internist that took care of me at the hospital...
All I keep hearing is Cha--ching! $$$$ We just upped our medical deductible to $5000 in January and our out of pocket is $7500 - which we expect to meet (the hospital bill as $5100 alone as of Wednesday afternoon, which they sent me a letter in hospital telling me to send someone down with the payment - HAHAHAHAHHAHA Ya, right - who has $5100 just sitting around????)
I am very thankful for to all of you who were praying for me. Thankful for visitors that came to support me... My sister-in-law who came with me to the ER and stayed until 3am (she would have stayed longer, but I sent her home as I was just waiting to be admitted). Matt and his girl friend that thoroughly entertained my girls while I was whisked off to the hospital. DeeDee and Heather, who came to spend the night with my girls -- Earl who came a couple of times to the Hospital to pray with and encrouage me as well as called me, Diane Cardinas, who came to the hospial on her birthday to be with me (and I didn't even remember it was her bday) and arrived just in time as I just got the bad news about my heart and was upset and Steve was in Las Vegas still, Dee Dee who soon followed to come and be with me, Teresa Johnson who drove my girls to the hospital to see me, the Hodsons who popped in to say Hi after my procedure, Dina Perry who came and gave DeeDee and Rebecca a break Wednesday and brought me flowers, Sue Card who came while I was having my procedure yesterday, although I never got to see her, Dan Rupprecht who came by but I was too very sick yesterday to even say hi to him. As well as many of you who called to encourage me!
Thankful too to my children who kept it together to help me out, and cleaned the house while I was gone and sent me notes -- thanks too to Jessica Warbrick who came and helped clean and do laundry.
I also know that behind the scenes Ruth O organized dinners for my family and that several of have either signed up or have already brought meals -- thank you all.
Very, very thankful to my friends that came to the hospital Wednesday (DeeDee, Rebecca, and Thelma) who took good care of me in the hospital while I was very very very sick to my stomach. The doctor had given me something for the pain after the surgery and it made me very very very sick. Good friends clean up your barf -- and believe me it was everywhere cuz I had to lay flat after my procedure for 6 hours..... thank you dear friends for taking such good care of me.
The girls said there were lots and lots of you who called to help out my girls and offer help while Steve was gone. As well as I am reading on FB many many loving words from you all as well as emails -- my heart is deeply touched by all your love!!. I am so thankful to God for you all!! He has blessed me greatly with such a group of loving family and friends!!
So I am home, hoping that it just goes away......
~Diane
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
Friday, 13 February 2009
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My youngest, who's not so young anymore (11 1/2), from time to time mixes things up and makes me laugh so hard.
Mom: "Here, Gracie, I bought you some new face wash."
Gracie: "Does this mean I don't need to wash my face anymore with Avril Lavigne."
(for those of you who do not know, that's a female pop star)
M: "What...are you POSsibly TALking about???" *laughing*
G: "Whatever it's called!!!" *goes and gets it*
G: "Oh..... it's Aveno!"
M: ROLF
Needed a laugh -- I've had a migraine for the past few days....
~Di
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