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  • Many of you have asked me about my cancer -- so I thought I'd blog
    about it -- especially because it'll be a year on Tuesday that I was
    diagnosed.




    Lots was happening at the time.  My daughter Gracie fell (a year
    ago today - she was 6 at the time) in the kitchen and had broken her
    femur.  That was the day of my biopsy (running from emergency to
    the cancer building in the same parking lot to have this done). 
    Grace was admitted and had this external fixator attached to her leg in
    surgery the next morning.  She was hospitalized for 6 days. 



    Gracie's leg a day or so after surgery


    During that time was when I was diagnosed with stage Ia breast cancer -
    which is the best it can be for cancer (caught real early).



    Here
    I am the day I found out -- My Friend, Sue, took this picture. Here is
    where I stayed for 6 days when Gracie was hospitalized.


    Grace got out of the hospital completely needy -- wheelchair bound and
    had to have everything done for her. My surgery to remove the tumor was
    that next Monday (15th). My mom came down to help out as  Grace
    need to be  lifted and carried and I was not going to be able to
    do it (during the day when my hubby was gone). 



    My mom helping Gracie in the shower


    The surgeon
    thought he could go in and just do a lumpectomy to remove the cancer
    and some follow-up radiation, but the post-op tests revealed that I had
    a second type of breast cancer (ductal). 




    Another lumpectomy on the 22nd, test showed that it was all over my
    breast and (got this news on Dec 24 - what a horrible time for that!)
    that my tumor was very agressive  and I needed a mastectomy and
    chemo as an assurance that even though it (after CT & PET scans)
    had not spread anywhere, there was like a 40% chance that it had spread
    into my blood stream where it could deposit somewhere (thus the reason
    for the chemo).  



    Gracie and I on Christmas Morning



    I cut my hair real short on the 29th.  Chemo started January 5th
    and went for 4 sessions 3 weeks apart ending on March 5.  
    The first one was pretty bad; I felt pretty sick and was down for about
    5 days, but subsiqeunt ones were much better - maybe feeling nauseous
    only a day or two.  My hair fell out two weeks after the first
    session -- in handfuls!!  That was something that even though you
    prepare yourself for, when it happens it completely blows you away!!

    January 22nd

    Gracie's got her fixator off on our
    anniversay, March 3rd.  She had another month of physical
    therapy.  She limped for a while, but now you'd never know.

    This is her in August - you can see the pin hole scars in her leg.


    I chose in April to have a double mastectomy (because, I mean, who
    would want to go through this again!). So as of April, I consider
    myself to be cancer free as having gone through the chemo and
    mastectomies, assuming the chemo has done what it was supposed to do,
    which was kill any microscopic cancer cells floating in my body.


    Here's me recovering from my mastectomies.



    At the time of the mastectomies my surgeon also started
    reconstruction.  Now I only have one procedure left for that and
    I'm done.  Then just 4 more years of onocologist appointments and
    tests
    , then they'll consider me cancer free. My prognosis is very good.



    My hair started to growing about 3 weeks after my last chemo. 
    It's about 3 inches long now, growing almost 1/2 inch a month (growing
    really fast).  It came in thick, and curly in the back -- which is
    so funny because I've always had pretty much stick straight thin
    hair!!! 

    Me in September. 



    My family and friends worked overtime to help me this last year with
    meals and driving me places and taking my children here and there etc
    etc etc . My mom made several trips down her in the last year to help
    me during each surgery and recovery.  It is so humbling and I feel
    very blessed and loved.  God's grace and mercy held me up through
    every twist and turn.  I felt much peace over the last year
    concerning my diagnosis and treatment -- not that I haven't had my down
    times, but those, by the grace of God, have been few and far in
    between.  I have laughed and joked about it a lot.  Humor is
    a good thing.




    Well that's about it. 


    ~Me

  • I linked to a new song on our
    personal webpage.  I thought it was one of my worship tracks, but
    it is a track I uploaded for my daughter from the Peter Pan
    Soundtrack (UPDATE: I've obviously changed the music since).  As it started to play, I thought it really went well
    with the falling snow of my background. Ha!  To me it's one of the
    songs that I hear that puts me in a good mood... happy music...
    OOOOO I'm thinking happy thoughts and starting to float away from the keyboard.... hahhahha...

    I only wish I could float away somewhere today.
    I'm so upset with the latest with my hubby's family.  I didn't
    really sleep so I'm REALLY tired today.  When will it end????? Oh
    Lord, come quickly!! Amen?  And all God's children say, "Amen"...
    I can hear you all agreeing with me!!!

    I was supposed to have an IV of Vit C
    today, but the drs office messed up the schedule.  Bummer.

    My hubby hasn't worked in the last couple of days.  He's foot is
    bothering him, as he sprained it on our vacation playing basketball
    with his brothers and nephews. He's not so sure about being on a
    ladder.  So I'm hoping to get him out to go pick a Christmas tree
    with us today!!!

    I didn't get any school done this week.  With the bleeding
    complications from my procedure and just the pain in general, not much
    of anything has gotten done this week.  Although, I did take my
    kids to go see the SpongeBob movie.  Very cute, I thought. 
    I'm a bit stressed about getting my shopping and stuff done for the
    gifts that need to be mailed away.  Time is ticking. 
    Well, that's enough blogging for now.  I need to go take a shower!  (Bet you're glad to hear that! )

    As my eldest says --> Peace out!
    ~me

    UPDATE:  Got the tree!!!!

  • Hey everyone --

    The surgeon has put me on some restricted movement for a few more days
    because of some bleeding I'm having from the last procedure.  But
    I have to say -- I did peek under the dressing and they look so
    real.... I'm TOTALLY amazed.

    I'm afraid if I start to write anything more today that I'd just
    blaaaaaaaaahhhhh all over the screen.  I need some extended quiet
    time
    to work some things out.  Not much is going on today, so hopefully
    I can make the time.  Keep me in prayer, please... and if you stop
    by and read this, drop me a "hi"....
    ~Me

  • Here is a snippet from my devotion today.  On July 29th....
    Scripture reference "Behold, He cometh with the cloulds." Rev 1:7



    "In the Bible clouds are
    always connected with God.  Clouds are those sorrows or sufferings
    or providences, within or wihtout our personal lives, which seem to
    dispute the rule of God.  It is by those very clouds that the
    Spirit of God is teaching us how to walk by faith... It is not true to
    say that God wants to teach us something in our trials: through every
    cloud He brings, He wants us to unlearn
    something.  His purpose in the cloud is to simplify our belief
    until our relationship to Him is exactly that of a child...'They feared
    as they entered the cloud..." Is there anyone 'save Jesus only' in your
    cloud?  If so, it will get darker; you must get to the place where
    there is "no one any more save Jesus only.'"

    This
    really hit home as I've had this "cloud" of cancer for a year
    now.  I think of all the things I have learned through my trial --
    there have been a lot.  But thinking on what I "unlearned" isn't something I usually focus on at all.  
    Unlearning how to depend on myself and learning how to rely on
    God.  Unlearning  trying to manage stress and learning how to
    turn it over to God, etc.
      It's good to mediate on this a bit.


    Have a good night!
    ~Me

  • A quick blog for ladies only!!!!  So all you youngesters and males - cover your eyes and look away!!!


     ssshhhh... it's a secret.... I got my nipples today  .... but BOY! do they hurt!!! 
    Doctor says the pain should subside in a couple of days.  After 10
    days I get the stitches out... then the tatooing on the 29 of
    Dec.  Supposed to limit my activity for a couple of weeks... what
    else is new!! Ha!! Almost through this ordeal!

    That is all.
    ~me

  • Hey all.
    Here are a few pictures from our vacation:
     
    This is at Steve's College Friend's house ... Yummy meal!
    Josh, Val, Hiedi, Juls,      Grace, Stina & Elizabeth


    These are my Sister-in-laws...
    Debbie and Leslie


    These are the cousins
    Alex, Alison, Elizabeth, Matt, Valerie & Emily


    This is Steve and His brothers, Mike and Bob
    (Steve's in the middle)


    Here's Julie and Gracie at Thanksgiving meal.

    That's all for now!
    ~me

  • Hey All ---

    Just wanted to wish you a great Thanksgiving.  We get back very late on the 26th.... so signing off for a week! 

    Love to you all

    ~me

  •  Well, we are down to two days before we leave on vacation!!!  I can't believe it.  I am doing pretty good, just some minor details to take care of.... well, a lot of minor details, though.  I have one of my last two procedures done for my reconstruction the Monday after we come back, so on top of getting ready to go, I pretty much have to have things together around here for when I get back as it will put me down for a day or two. 

    Today I am having my first of 4 IVs to detox my system of the chemo.  It will contain very high doses of Vitamin C as well as some other antioxidants and good stuff.  I don't know what to expect, so it should be interesting.

    Oh and HEY - as of this morning I lost 5 lbs this week!!!    (yes i was trying - I just love that Sugar Buster diet!!!!)

    Not much else to say.
    ~love to you all....

  • Hey all -- please be praying for Steve.  His IgG (Immune Globuline G levels are real
    low again -- he had hypogammaglobulinemia last year, but seem to
    overcome it at the begining of this year.  His levels were 900/350-1000 in June and
    are 230/350-1000 now .  In June was the time all this junk started with
    his parents . The Dr says that stress
    could be a HUGE part of it tearing down his immune system and Steve has been hyperstressed
    the last few months (I mean, way more stressed than I think I've seen
    him in 6 or 7 years).  He will have to start IVIG treatments again
    this
    Friday.  She said it will probably be an going thing - as in
    indefinitely - forever. 
    *YIKES*  It is about $1900 per treatment (after it's discounted by
    the insurance) and we have a $2500 deductibles each.  Good thing
    is that after we hit the deductible the dr takes any insurance payment
    as paid in full -- However, add that to all the tests I will have
    because of my cancer for the next 5 years -- I'll probably be hitting
    my deductibe as well. 
    Knowing you're going to hit that $5000 a year is sickening.  
    I mean, what a way to start every year!!!  *sigh*  Yet, I
    know God will provide and I shouldn't be concerned. Still...... *sigh
    again*

    I know God is bigger than this and can heal him.  He can!!  Please be lifiting him in prayer along with me!!

    ~Me

  • Wow!  Got all kinds of stuff done in preparation for our trip.  I took care of the Psyco Bunny's (
    ) feeding problem, as well as the two other biting bunnies, by buying
    feeders that attaches to the out side of the cage -- got some wire
    cutters out and --ZAP--
    problem gone!  I also took care of getting someone to take care of
    all the pets (6 bunnies and 2 cats and a fish). I also got most of the
    packing done and I'm down to only 1/2 a load of laundry.

    Today is my cupboard day:  I am going to attempt to clean out the
    bathroom, hallway, cleaning supply and tupperware cupboards. 
    Hopefully I will get to it all, but I've got to go with my hubby to one
    of his dr visits today - and that will probably take 2 hours out of my
    afternoon.

    I have to say... it's nice after all the chemo and surgeries and
    recovers to finally have the energy to tackle some long over due
    "spring" cleaning!  PTL!!!

    Well that's all for now!  4 days and counting....
    ~Me